for the record....

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Harrow!!

Long time no...blog! =)

Just a quickie! I don't really blog anymore given my super gila work schedule. But I just felt like blogging. Since it's been a pretty awesome week for me. So here are some random updates. For instances,

1. I finally caught on to the Twilight saga mania. Yup. I am totally slow. But nonetheless, I caught on ever since a friend invited me along to the movies to watch Eclipse. Let's say. I decided to watch the first and since then, I've been hooked. After reading all 4 books. I am still hooked. heh heh heh

Bella and Edward. *purr*

2. Health Promotion Project at my pharmacy.

As part of my traineeship I had to run a project to promote an awareness in my community on a certain health condition and I picked Asthma. Gah! it's been insane! I only had 3-4 days to plan everything and I was shitting myself trying to put everything together. Nonetheless, I did it. And it has been fantastic! It boosted my confidence too! Brownie points!

3. Random thing no. 3. I like dogs. Lester is now my favourite dog in the whole wide world. He's a cute fluff ball who's tongue hangs out. A real life cartoon! sigh.... *hearts*

4. I seem to be buying new clothes in all shades of purple!!!

yea I know. What's new?? I need a new colour! =P 

4. I miss my boyfriend. sigh. Yup. No surprise there. sigh.

Anyway..... that's all. Gotta go and sleeeeeeeeeeeeeep!

SURPRISE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 i decided i needed to share something with the whole wide world today.

Sooooo, this is an unofficial blog entry.

I know I know. Didn't I say that I've closed this blog??? yea yea. Eat my shorts! hehehe

I have something swelling up in my heart that I had to tell the whole world about.

NO!!! I'm NOT engaged. hah! in your dreams!!!! =P

But rather my heart is full of thankfulness that I can not describe. But I will try my best in this blog entry. teehehehe

I had TWO awesome weekends! Which I never expected to have this year. TWO weekends of sheer bliss and fun which were filled with happiness.

When I graduated from Uni and moved to the country side to work. I didnt expect to celebrate my birthday. I actually expected to be alone on my birthday. But I am thankful that I wasn't. Instead I was thoroughly blessed to be surrounded by awesome people.

The weekend prior to my birthday, Jay decided to hop down to Adelaide and spend time with me. It was really special. We went on a wine and cheese trail. We had sooooooooo much fun hopping from one vineyard to another. Taking photos. This trip made us closer and we felt renewed cos since we both started work, the LDR made the transition to the new phase in life way harder. So this trip mended the cracks that were forming and the renewed love filled up the gaps. It was truly a lovely time. Even though it was a super short trip, it was what we needed. giggle.....

giggle we are the goofiest couple ever! kekekeke

The weekend of my birthday. Boy, I didn't expect to meet a super cool mentor who's Malaysian and whom I could totally clique with. heh heh. She planned a birthday trip for me! She had it all planned out! We would spend the night in the city at a hotel. Eat Japanese food. Have a slumber party! And go shopping the next day! It was perfect! I had an superb time! I got to meet up with some friends who joined me for the Jap dinner.

Now, you've got to understand that all my close friends from University have now been scarttered across the state and country. One joker at Alice Springs (you know who you are, Mak Minah). One Joker at the Mountains (Miss Annie). One Joker under the Bridge. The other Joker at a chuch camp. (He is thus forgiven as he was serving God. hehehe A good gift for me.) And so, I expected nothing. sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

But, I was blessed with the quirkiest friends and most thoughtful gifts ever during my 24th birthday. Stef and Kim have been the coolest duo who are heaps fun and super entertaining bestowed upon me the cutest soft toy BUNNY! Poh Yen, my faithful friend who loves anything alcohol and coffee gave me the most awesomest coffee. Sigh. Poh! it's real bliss! yummy to the max! And Cheryl made it all happen. She's the best!

Manicure sessions at the slumber part. awesome! =P

I wanted to share all this because I have been feeling a wee bit down. I felt forgotten. I felt alone. I was struggling with a lot of things. Disappointed day in day out. Upset with God.

However, when I look back and suddenly it dawned upon me. I truly have something to be grateful and thankful for.

I'm really NOT forgotten. He has been watching over me. Watching out for me. He gave me the greatest gifts when I least expect it.

Lord,

thank you. Thank you for remembering me.

*hugs*

thank you for all your lovely birthday wishes. They have blessed me in every single way. Thank you mum, dad and koko for your lovely cards. sigh I miss you guys very much you know. Sigh. Thank you emily for the super quirky card!!! wAKAKAKA

XANNA dearest, you surprised me with your card! i least expected it! it's lovely to have you in the same country! simply lovely! thank you for the necklace!

Thank you. Turning 24 was fun. Being 24.....is a different matter. HAHAHA! =P

love very much,

JO kooOOoooOOOo

aiyo....

i think...

it's time to move on.

i don't like blogging on xanga anymore.

it takes too much effort to blog nowadays.

bleh... work does suck the life out of ya.

ish.....

MOM n DAD!!!  i think you're the only ones reading my blog. So just check facebook only yea since you've got an account.

I hereby....officially say GOOOOODbye to the blogging world.

FAREWELLL!!!!!!

Adios!

MWAH MWAH MWAH!

setia kepadaMu

Below is a blog entry that I wrote in Nov 2005:-

Setia Pada-Mu

Maafkan aku

Ampuni aku

Kadangku tak peka kan suara-Mu

Seringkali Ku melayani-Mu

Hanya untuk kepuasanku

Ajarku 'tuk berjalan sesuai kehendak-Mu

Kemanapun engkau membawaku

Aku ikut bersama-Mu

Dan apapun jua yang Kau mau

Ku'kan turut kehendak-Mu

Kar'naku disini

Penuhi panggilan-Mu

Ajarku 'tuk setia kepada-Mu

.....taken from Raja Mulia by Jacqlien Celosse

~this is song is so beautiful. And the words just spoke to me. It spoke to my heart and my spirit.

As i began to read the words as they sunk into my mind. Tearrs begin to trickle down my cheeks. And I said "Yesus, inilah isi hatiku yand sebenar." Hehehe directly translated from. "Jesus, This is truly my hearts' desire"

I'm sure you know understand the lyrics. But for those who don't.

The song is a declaration to the Lord that I will be faithful to Him. (Setia=faithful, Kepada-Mu=To You)

And this lady sang, The Lord began to minister to me. I could feel His presence. It was so strong. .... it was really amazing.

And within minutes i figured out the chords on the guitar. It's such a simple song. And for me to figure it out on the guitar was amazing. I'm a piano person. But to play the piano at 1am would sent my family into rage. (resulting me banished to the tool shed outside.)

This song spoke to me as at this point of time I'm deciding on which University to apply. It's a big thing you know.

Slowly, God's plan began to piece together..One by one my questions were answered.

Pharmacy or Medical Bioscience? .....PHARMACY!

Adelaide or Glasgow? ..... SIT or IMU ?

and today i could answer those two questions,

as i stood at the altar after Pastor Gwen preached on making the right decisions. It was so approriate for me.

And at the altar, God spoke so evidently to me.

"I will be with you. Where ever you go. I will be there. I will see you though. I will help you through. Trust in Me. Follow me."

That really encouraged me. Cos i was afraid.

Afraid...

... i might be able to stand the pressure of the pharmacy course.

....i might not be smart enough to get through uni

....that if i go overseas... i might not survive living on my own

but, i'm gonna trust in the Lord.

He will see me through.

Lord, I will be faithful to You.

When I listened to the same song today. It still stirred up my spirit the same way it did 4 years ago. As I searched my blog for the lyrics I stumbled on this entry. To read it again after 4 years reminds of His goodness and faithfulness.

Coming here to Victor Harbor and finding myself struggling with the workload, I can't help but feel forgotten. I feel cheated. Cos I always had to work so hard to achieve anything. Thus I start to compare my circumstances with other ppl and I feel very average. You might think me a narcissist when I say that feel that I'm made for great things. I'm meant to do great things. I feel that I'm meant to do more than I can ever imagine. When? I don't know. But some time in my life.

But right now, I feel left in the pits. I guess that's how every fresh graduate will feel, having have to start from the bottom and climb to the top. To be honest, I feel a bit lost. I work so hard and I truly wonder for what. I want to be the best in what I do...but at what price? and for what? To earn a lot of money or to make a difference in people's life.

Right now it feels like I'm just trying to get through the work load without much care or compassion. And I feel that is wrong and it is a very empty way of life.

I want to treat every patient as if they were people dear to me.

God, You saw me through 4 years of pharmacy, You brought me here, You sustained me here, You guided me and now You have brought me here. All for a reason. I believe You will reveal Your purpose soon.

Help me not be weary of doing good. Give me the strength to do my best and honor You with my work. Sigh. Forgive me for being disgruntled of late. It's been a struggle. I'm still learning. I'm giving it my best shot. I'm tiring myself out. Help me learn as much as possible and prepare me for a pharmacists' life.

Thank you Lord for Your grace and love.

Amen.